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freakykatTitle: Love’s Tender Refrain
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plumduff
Series: Part Nine of Ten
Time Frame: All over the place post 513
Words: 900
Beta: None for this part, so all mistakes are mine. :)
Summary: Excerpts of Brian and Justin's life.
Rating: G to NC-17
Warnings: Um…nothing much. A little angst, a lot of fun, romance, silliness…
Disclaimer: I own none of this - they belong to Showtime, Cowlip and others. I only play with them a little. Once I'm done, I'll dust them off and give them back.
A/N: This is dedicated entirely to the lovelyplumduff for her birthday and as tradition is seems to have become, it’s ridiculously late. This is a ten part series inspired by this meme I saw floating around. The gist of it was: put your iTunes on shuffle, and write a drabble based on each of the first ten songs that play. Don’t linger when the song is over, this is an exercise. Though this series ranges in length from drabblish to ficlet to not so ficlet.
Previous Parts:
1. I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound.
2. I'd encourage your smiles, I'd expect you won't cry.
3. And I‘m so sad, like a good book I can‘t put this day back.
4. Scratching at the surface now, trying hard to work it out.
5. Touch me deep, pure and true, give to me forever.
6. But you ain’t leaving without a fight, and I think that I am just as torn inside.
7. This time we're not giving up, let's make it last forever.
8. This is the voice that I was given and if you don't like it take a long walk.
But if you stay I’ll make you a day, like no day has been or will be again.
(If you go away - Cyndi Lauper)
9.
The world twisted and tilted around him. His hand found the steadiness of wood, words echoing in his head.
“Mr. Taylor. This is Manhattan General Hospital. You’re listed as Brian Kinney’s emergency contact…”
That had been the last words that had penetrated his mind. Everything after was white noise, like the static on his television late at night. Bits and pieces coming at him while he numbly got into a car, a plane, a taxi.
Brian.
Accident.
No information to give him on his status.
It was a miracle he could speak when he reached the nurses’ desk. Told to wait, he struggled to keep it together. He could vaguely hear Michael queening out in the background, the quiet flow of Ben’s comforting words. They had insisted on coming with him. He hadn’t cared. Now, he wished he had left them behind.
He just needed to see Brian.
When the doctor came out into the hall, he gave them a calming smile of reassurance, handing Justin a plastic bag. Inside where Brian’s clothes, a little blood stained and with shaking hands, Justin reached in, pulling out the thin silver chain that lay at the bottom. The glint of light on the simple silver ring caught his eye.
They never took those stupid chains off.
The doctor explained that Brian’s cab had been sideswiped during a three car accident. He had escaped with a semi-serious contusion to his head and a few bruises.
He smiled warmly at Justin. “He’s going to need to stay overnight for observation but otherwise, he’s okay. You can go in and see him now.”
Justin didn’t wait for further permission, moving past the doctor, towards the direction he had been pointed to.
Entering the room, he paused, heart still beating like it wanted to explode out of his chest. It plunged a little at the pale color on Brian’s face. It made the laceration on his head even more vicious looking.
“Stop freaking out.”
Justin jumped slightly, composing himself before he walked toward the bed. “I’m not.”
Brian opened his eyes and tried to smile. “Liar.”
Justin leaned down, moist lips against dry ones, sighing as the taste of Brian, alive and with him, touched his mouth.
He wasn’t going to lose it.
It was okay. Brian was okay.
He needed him to keep it together. To not lose it over this.
Wasn’t so serious. Everything was fine.
All those thoughts that had flashed in his mind, those scenes that had plagued him all the way to the hospital had been wrong. His chest felt heavy still, tears he’d refuse to shed kept at bay and now swallowed away. He had been determined to be the strong one.
He would take care of Brian. That was his only concern.
He repeated the mantra in his head as he reassured Brian that he was fine. Told him to shut up and leave everything up to him. He was going to take care of him.
He has almost lost him again and that thought was enough to break him. Not that Justin would allow that. He knew better than to go into hysterics when Brian needed him to take the lead.
That was why he was in this life with him. Because he gave him that strength that Brian craved but never asked for.
He would make sure to take care him.
That was his job.
Justin could feel Brian shaking slightly underneath his fingers as he smoothed the blanket over him. He wondered if Brian could sense his own trembles. One slightly callused hand swept over his cheek.
“I’m not going anywhere, Sunshine.”
Justin gave Brian a watery smile.
“Neither am I.
Brian smirked just slightly. “You’re head is one jumbled mess, isn’t it?”
Justin shook his head. “No.”
It wasn’t. His heart was, though. Now relieved but still feeling that fear that had gripped it when that phone call had arrived.
But he could push that fear away now. He would. Deep down inside and when he knew Brian was perfectly okay…when they were back home together in their own house, in their own bed…he might pull it out and examine it.
When Brian made him mad again - which he would, inevitably - he would take it out and remember for one brief moment the grief that had almost shattered him at the thought of losing Brian.
But that would be later.
Now, he was going to do what needed to be done.
He would be there for Brian completely.
That was his job.
“Justin.”
He looked into sharp, hazel eyes, taken back by the love shining in them. Justin took Brian’s hand in his own, pressing a kiss to each knuckle.
“I know. You’re okay.”
“Exactly.”
“And we’re going to keep it that way.”
Brian nodded. “No argument here.”
“Good. I’ll make sure of that.”
Amused gaze locked with his and Brian smiled as he spoke. “Are you?”
Justin smoothed hair away from Brian’s forehead. “You got that right.”
“And how are you planning to do this?”
“You’re never leaving the house again.”
Justin kissed Brian’s lips, swallowing the small chuckle that escaped, letting it soothe him.
He would love Brian…forever.
That was his job.
10. I say baby, babe I've loved you a long time, I try harder just to know you're all mine.
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Sorry about lateness. Not feeling well. Hope you all like it. Only one left. :) Thanks to everyone that's responded.
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Written for:
plumduffSeries: Part Nine of Ten
Time Frame: All over the place post 513
Words: 900
Beta: None for this part, so all mistakes are mine. :)
Summary: Excerpts of Brian and Justin's life.
Rating: G to NC-17
Warnings: Um…nothing much. A little angst, a lot of fun, romance, silliness…
Disclaimer: I own none of this - they belong to Showtime, Cowlip and others. I only play with them a little. Once I'm done, I'll dust them off and give them back.
A/N: This is dedicated entirely to the lovely
plumduff for her birthday and as tradition is seems to have become, it’s ridiculously late. This is a ten part series inspired by this meme I saw floating around. The gist of it was: put your iTunes on shuffle, and write a drabble based on each of the first ten songs that play. Don’t linger when the song is over, this is an exercise. Though this series ranges in length from drabblish to ficlet to not so ficlet. Previous Parts:
1. I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound.
2. I'd encourage your smiles, I'd expect you won't cry.
3. And I‘m so sad, like a good book I can‘t put this day back.
4. Scratching at the surface now, trying hard to work it out.
5. Touch me deep, pure and true, give to me forever.
6. But you ain’t leaving without a fight, and I think that I am just as torn inside.
7. This time we're not giving up, let's make it last forever.
8. This is the voice that I was given and if you don't like it take a long walk.
But if you stay I’ll make you a day, like no day has been or will be again.
(If you go away - Cyndi Lauper)
9.
The world twisted and tilted around him. His hand found the steadiness of wood, words echoing in his head.
“Mr. Taylor. This is Manhattan General Hospital. You’re listed as Brian Kinney’s emergency contact…”
That had been the last words that had penetrated his mind. Everything after was white noise, like the static on his television late at night. Bits and pieces coming at him while he numbly got into a car, a plane, a taxi.
Brian.
Accident.
No information to give him on his status.
It was a miracle he could speak when he reached the nurses’ desk. Told to wait, he struggled to keep it together. He could vaguely hear Michael queening out in the background, the quiet flow of Ben’s comforting words. They had insisted on coming with him. He hadn’t cared. Now, he wished he had left them behind.
He just needed to see Brian.
When the doctor came out into the hall, he gave them a calming smile of reassurance, handing Justin a plastic bag. Inside where Brian’s clothes, a little blood stained and with shaking hands, Justin reached in, pulling out the thin silver chain that lay at the bottom. The glint of light on the simple silver ring caught his eye.
They never took those stupid chains off.
The doctor explained that Brian’s cab had been sideswiped during a three car accident. He had escaped with a semi-serious contusion to his head and a few bruises.
He smiled warmly at Justin. “He’s going to need to stay overnight for observation but otherwise, he’s okay. You can go in and see him now.”
Justin didn’t wait for further permission, moving past the doctor, towards the direction he had been pointed to.
Entering the room, he paused, heart still beating like it wanted to explode out of his chest. It plunged a little at the pale color on Brian’s face. It made the laceration on his head even more vicious looking.
“Stop freaking out.”
Justin jumped slightly, composing himself before he walked toward the bed. “I’m not.”
Brian opened his eyes and tried to smile. “Liar.”
Justin leaned down, moist lips against dry ones, sighing as the taste of Brian, alive and with him, touched his mouth.
He wasn’t going to lose it.
It was okay. Brian was okay.
He needed him to keep it together. To not lose it over this.
Wasn’t so serious. Everything was fine.
All those thoughts that had flashed in his mind, those scenes that had plagued him all the way to the hospital had been wrong. His chest felt heavy still, tears he’d refuse to shed kept at bay and now swallowed away. He had been determined to be the strong one.
He would take care of Brian. That was his only concern.
He repeated the mantra in his head as he reassured Brian that he was fine. Told him to shut up and leave everything up to him. He was going to take care of him.
He has almost lost him again and that thought was enough to break him. Not that Justin would allow that. He knew better than to go into hysterics when Brian needed him to take the lead.
That was why he was in this life with him. Because he gave him that strength that Brian craved but never asked for.
He would make sure to take care him.
That was his job.
Justin could feel Brian shaking slightly underneath his fingers as he smoothed the blanket over him. He wondered if Brian could sense his own trembles. One slightly callused hand swept over his cheek.
“I’m not going anywhere, Sunshine.”
Justin gave Brian a watery smile.
“Neither am I.
Brian smirked just slightly. “You’re head is one jumbled mess, isn’t it?”
Justin shook his head. “No.”
It wasn’t. His heart was, though. Now relieved but still feeling that fear that had gripped it when that phone call had arrived.
But he could push that fear away now. He would. Deep down inside and when he knew Brian was perfectly okay…when they were back home together in their own house, in their own bed…he might pull it out and examine it.
When Brian made him mad again - which he would, inevitably - he would take it out and remember for one brief moment the grief that had almost shattered him at the thought of losing Brian.
But that would be later.
Now, he was going to do what needed to be done.
He would be there for Brian completely.
That was his job.
“Justin.”
He looked into sharp, hazel eyes, taken back by the love shining in them. Justin took Brian’s hand in his own, pressing a kiss to each knuckle.
“I know. You’re okay.”
“Exactly.”
“And we’re going to keep it that way.”
Brian nodded. “No argument here.”
“Good. I’ll make sure of that.”
Amused gaze locked with his and Brian smiled as he spoke. “Are you?”
Justin smoothed hair away from Brian’s forehead. “You got that right.”
“And how are you planning to do this?”
“You’re never leaving the house again.”
Justin kissed Brian’s lips, swallowing the small chuckle that escaped, letting it soothe him.
He would love Brian…forever.
That was his job.
10. I say baby, babe I've loved you a long time, I try harder just to know you're all mine.
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Sorry about lateness. Not feeling well. Hope you all like it. Only one left. :) Thanks to everyone that's responded.
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Date: 2008-09-24 06:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-24 06:47 am (UTC)Awww...I'm sorry. It's only planned out for that many but I'm flattered and grateful you like them so much, you don't want them to end. :)
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Date: 2008-09-24 07:31 am (UTC)Cyndi!!!!!!!!!
And what the heck... First she sings and nearly blows up Justin, and now she sings and inspires cars to crash into Brian??
I love her, but jeez... ;)
Predictably, this is awesome and I love it and um... you reign as queen of the BJ world!
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:24 am (UTC)YES! She rocks!
*lol* BUT at least she used her powers for good and reunited Luke/Noah and helped the Goonies find their treasure! :)
Thank you!
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Date: 2008-09-24 07:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-26 05:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-24 08:33 am (UTC)Lol, I think I was just as terrified as Justin. Damn, you wrote that so well and Justin's thoughts were so realistic and powerful!
And the last two lines are absolutely wonderful.
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:26 am (UTC)Thank you so much!
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Date: 2008-09-24 10:12 am (UTC)...and I'll add my vote to all those who commented for more than 10 chapters =D
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-24 10:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-26 05:27 am (UTC)Thanks for reading!
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Date: 2008-09-24 10:45 am (UTC)OMG so beautiful Kat, I could feel Justins pain & anguish, he thought he'd lost him again, I never want this to end, can you post it all together when its over so I can save it, I freakin love thos fic,,hope your feeling better,,,hugs Jx
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:29 am (UTC)I can do that. :)
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Date: 2008-09-24 12:15 pm (UTC)I felt as if Brian was telling this not only to Justin but to me too! I *was* freaking out! Lol... and that was totally something I could see Brian say *g*
Only one left
*pouts*
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-24 01:12 pm (UTC)Great chapter!
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-26 05:32 am (UTC)I feel pretty good today. :)
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Date: 2008-09-24 02:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-26 05:32 am (UTC)You think you'll survive the Luke/Noah one? *lol*
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Date: 2008-09-24 02:30 pm (UTC)This was really beautiful and sweet.
Hope you're feeling better!! :)
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:33 am (UTC)Awww...thank you!
I do now! :)
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Date: 2008-09-24 03:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-26 05:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-24 03:48 pm (UTC)“You’re never leaving the house again.”}
I chuckled at those lines... that's so funny... you know... if this had been real as in the show.. I can so imagine Justin saying it with tears brimming in his eyes... and Brian will be rolling his eyes and smiling with tongue in cheek... hehee.... now that image is playing in my head!!...great work.. I don't ever want you to end this fic at all.... cheers...
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:34 am (UTC)Thanks for reading!
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Date: 2008-09-24 07:04 pm (UTC)I hope you feel better soon.
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:35 am (UTC)I do now. :)
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Date: 2008-09-24 08:15 pm (UTC)Chelle
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-24 09:03 pm (UTC)I'm sad that these are almost done, but they have been wonderful. You capture their voices so well.
Kim
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:37 am (UTC)Thank you!
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Date: 2008-09-24 09:21 pm (UTC)Loved this part so much, the second half in particular. The emotions were so powerful. It was easy to feel what Justin went through, trying not to freak out but to be strong for Brian.
“I’m not going anywhere, Sunshine.”
Justin gave Brian a watery smile.
“Neither am I.
*sighs* =)
Brian smirked just slightly. “You’re head is one jumbled mess, isn’t it?”
Justin shook his head. “No.”
It wasn’t. His heart was, though. Now relieved but still feeling that fear that had gripped it when that phone call had arrived.
But he could push that fear away now. He would. Deep down inside and when he knew Brian was perfectly okay…when they were back home together in their own house, in their own bed…he might pull it out and examine it.
When Brian made him mad again - which he would, inevitably - he would take it out and remember for one brief moment the grief that had almost shattered him at the thought of losing Brian.
This part was so powerful! Such a great imagination.
If that chapter isn't about freakin love, I don't know what is.
Awesome!
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:39 am (UTC)If that chapter isn't about freakin love, I don't know what is.
Awesome!
I so love you for that comment. Thank you!
I think I may actually miss this series more than you guys. *lol* But at least now I can get back the others stuff that's been accummlating dust while I did this. :)
Thank you so much for all your wonderful compliments and for reading!
*hugs*
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Date: 2008-09-24 11:31 pm (UTC)*sigh*
I love these two.
btw, hope you feel better
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:39 am (UTC)Thanks for stopping by!
I feel much better! :)
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Date: 2008-09-25 01:25 am (UTC)That sentence is just perfect!!
I hope you feel better very soon. :)
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:40 am (UTC)Thank you for reading!
I do feel much better. :)
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Date: 2008-09-25 01:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-26 05:41 am (UTC)Kat
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Date: 2008-09-25 04:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-26 05:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-25 07:39 am (UTC)Justin's job, the art of loving Brian Kinney.
Brian's job, advertising his feelings for Justin Taylor.
So love this series!
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-25 04:09 pm (UTC)Hope you are feeling better.
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Date: 2008-09-26 05:45 am (UTC)I am!
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Date: 2008-10-05 09:58 pm (UTC)Yes, it's Justin's job to love Brian forever, and your job to make sure it happens. We are relying on you. No pressure or anything, ha ha.
Seriously, a lovely chapter, angsty but with a happy outcome.