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Title: Indebted
Chapter: Two - What Once Was
Sequel/Series: series...I hope.
Author: [livejournal.com profile] freakykat
Time Frame: Takes place during 3rd season after 3.04 - AU timelime
Summary: Justin asks Brian for a favor
Rating: R
Warnings: Justin/Ethan implied
Notes: Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] wouldbedorothy for beta-reading as usual. She's still handing out the bunny food here. A different way Brian/Justin could have gotten back together. Just a reminder that some of the storylines from Season 3 will be here however, they may be gotten to and resolved differently. And despite how this chapter may appear, I ADORE Teddy! Feedback appreciated and loved!
Disclaimer: I own none of this - they belong to Showtime, Cowlip and others. I only play with them a little. Once I'm done, I'll dust them off and give them back.


Indebted


Chapter 2: What Once Was


Justin gritted his teeth at the round of applause he received when he entered the diner. It was the same wherever he went that morning. He smiled woodenly, thanking the regulars who shouted congratulations and encouragement. Pushing the swinging door that led into the kitchen, he glared at Frank.

“Don’t even think about it.”

Frank laughed, shrugging. “I wasn’t going to say a word.” He pointed a thumb to the storage closet. “She’s in there.”

Justin marched toward it, almost knocking into the door as it swung open. “Shit!”

“Oh my god, Sunshine.” Debbie set down the boxes she was carrying and leaned down to help Justin to his feet. “I’m so sorry, sweetie. I didn’t know you were here.”

“This is just not my day,” Justin mumbled, brushing the crumbs off the seat of his pants. “Debbie- oof!” Debbie launched at him, hugging tightly, and Justin grabbed onto a nearby counter to stop them both from tumbling to the floor.

“Sunshine! I’m so proud of you!” Debbie giggled into his ear and jumped in excitement. “Why didn’t you say anything!” She pulled away, glaring at him, hands planted firmly on her hips. “I had to find out from that old fairy, Riley!”

“How the hell did he get one?”

“Honey, they’re all over. All the businesses got one. We always do.”

“Oh, wonderful.” Justin rubbed against the throbbing in his head, closing his eyes in an effort to shake it off. “Debbie, is it necessary to have it up here?”

“Of course it is, baby. We support our employees, you know that. Plus, who wouldn’t want to look at that?” She grinned at him and a second later was heading to the front of the diner. Justin watched her go, breathing in and out for several moments after she’d disappeared through the swinging door. Okay. This wasn’t so bad. He could get through it.

He reached into his locker for his apron and pulled it over his head, eyes falling on the picture that still hung inside. It was a snapshot of Brian and Gus that he had taken while they had napped together. Back when things had been different. One finger brushed across the still faces, halting abruptly, and Justin snapped the door shut. He couldn’t allow his thoughts to wander to the what-ifs that sometimes sprung up in his mind. Pulling tight on the ties, he wrapped them around his waist, tugged them securely and, picking up a tub, headed to the front. Bussing kept his mind busy enough to stop from wishing things he shouldn’t.

He noticed Ben enter and gave him a small, nervous wave before clearing the dishes from the counter. He silently prayed that he wouldn’t look too closely at the wall near the bathroom. Michael and Emmett entered, followed by Ted a few moments later, and Justin began to chant. He knew the odds were slim that it would go unnoticed, but stranger things had happened.

God loved him. He would spare him being here for it. He was a kind, benevolent deity.

“Holy spandex of hotness!” Michael exclaimed. “Will you look at that!”

Justin’s eyes closed. Brian was right. God was a bastard.

“That’s impressive.” Ben’s voice had a tinge of awe.

“You think?” Ted smirked, hands shaking at his side. “Jesus, who would have thought it.”

“It’s not that shocking. I mean, he’s one of the best looking of us all.”

“Well, yeah…but you know…” Michael gaped. “He’s like…like…hot!”

“What are you --- ohmigod!! Justin!!!!” Emmett squealed with delight.

Justin refused to look at them, and he groaned inwardly, cheeks suddenly flaming. He watched his friends -- he supposed they were still that -- from the corner of his eye.

“It’s - I have - wow,” Michael sputtered, eyes wide and shocked. His mouth hung open and Ben nudged it closed. Any other time, it would have made Justin laugh, but his stomach was recoiling too wildly for that.

“I couldn’t agree more.”

Justin’s head swerved toward the voice and, before he could stop it, his face broke into a grin. Brian returned the smile, coming to stand next to the boys to stare at the poster. Michael turned his head to glance at him and leaned in to whisper, “You let that go?”

Brian hissed back, “Mikey…shut it.”

Lately, Michael had been dropping little jabs here and there about things he had no right to talk about. Brian didn’t like it. He walked away from the group and took a seat in one of the empty booths. The others followed, eyes still glued to the poster.

Justin appeared at their side, quietly waiting for their orders. The table broke into applause and he bit his lip to stop from yelling. He counted to five, waiting for the first remark. He knew they meant no harm. It was how they were, so the sooner they got it over with, the better.

“Well, well, Boy Wonder.” Michael grinned up at him.

“I don’t think ‘boy’ is the appropriate noun,” Ted remarked, staring at Brian, one hand rubbing his eyes. Emmett swallowed nervously, bringing misty eyes to Justin.

“You look fabulous, baby!”

“Thanks. I made the poster.” He blurted it out before thinking it through.

“You did a great job, Justin.” Ben gave him a thumbs up.

“Yes, he did! Our little Sunshine is talented and a looker! Isn’t that right, boys?!” Debbie called from across the room and it broke into whoops and hollers. Justin wished the floor would open up.

Michael smirked at him, teasing. “I’d never seen that side of you before, Justin.” He caught the look Brian gave him, grinning in return.

“Ah…I hope not,” Ben scolded. There was a smattering of laughter around the table, and Justin relaxed slightly, trying to ignore the warmth he felt in the midst of it all. He realized he’d missed being part of this family. For all their flaws, they were the first ones to accept who he was. No questions. He smiled widely as they all seemed to move on from the subject. He was safe.

And then it happened.

“Who took the picture?” Emmett asked. All eyes were on Justin, including a pair of amused hazel ones.

Justin cleared his throat. “I’m sorry, what?”

“I asked who took the picture, sweetie?”

Brian jumped in. “What difference does it make?”

Emmett shrugged, eyes now on Brian. He paused, studying him before saying, a smile twitching at the corners of his mouth, “It’s just that there’s an intimate feel to it. I’m no photography expert, though I did fuck that Sears portrait guy from Allegheny once.” Emmett wiggled his pinky finger and continued. “But you seem really comfortable in it.”

Justin stuttered. “Well…I…was. I mean…” He wasn’t sure how much he was supposed to say. He doubted Brian would want them know. “It was…ah…a friend.” He kept his eyes away from Brian.

“Was it the fiddler?” Ted asked sharply.

Justin sent him a angry look but simply shook his head.

“Must be a good friend, then.” Ted glared at Brian. “Ethan must not be happy that someone else took that.”

Justin glared at him. “Ethan trusts me.”

“So, who took it?”

Justin took a deep breath. He was close to telling them all to go to hell.

“I took it.”

Everyone froze, eyes swinging from Brian to Justin and back. “Justin asked me for help. I gave it to him. End of story.” Brian stared at each of them for a few long seconds before turning his gaze to Justin, winking slyly at him. “Now, can we fucking order, please?” That was the end of it. The great Kinney had spoken.

Justin smiled back brightly, his heart beating faster at the familiar look he saw there. He mouthed a “Thank you” to Brian, receiving a smile in return. Justin gulped past whatever was now throbbing in his chest and asked, “You guys ready?”

Ben nodded. “Wheaties.” He was aware they were making Justin uncomfortable. And he could tell that Ted was wound up tight. He noticed Michael open his mouth to say something and kicked him pointedly in the shin.

“Ouch!” Michael sent him daggers but said nothing. He glanced at Brian, who was ignoring them all. “I guess I’ll have the lumberjack special.”

“So, Justin…I had no clue you were into that kind of exposure.” Ted’s voice was tight, and Justin glanced at him. His eyes seemed unfocused and hazy. He knew Ted had been having a hard time since his business had come under fire. “You know, porn isn’t kosher these days. Right, Brian?” Justin looked back and forth between the two friends, sensing there was more than he knew.

Emmett tugged at his shirt. “Teddy, please. Let it go.”

“What?” Ted snatched his arm away and smiled thinly. “You better be careful or your ex’s new friend might come after you for public indecency. I’m surprised Brian would do that. I mean we all know how much he cares for his friends.” Ted gritted his teeth. “You have to be especially careful there, Sunshine. You have a history, don’t you? Sap’s little go-”

Brian’s voice cut off the remark. “Can I get two eggs, toast, and an orange juice?” He glared at Ted. “And, Theodore, one more fucking word and I’ll rip your balls off one at a time. Got it?”

“You’re defending him now? Helping him? The guy that leaves you -- you, Brian fucking Kinney -- gets some respect, but I -- one of your oldest and dearest friends -- don’t.” Ted’s voice, full of anger and hurt, rose with each word, and the room fell into silence.

“Teddy. Stop,” Emmett begged, glaring at his partner. “It’s not Justin’s or even Brian’s fault.”

“Of course it’s Brian fault! You’re letting that motherfucker come after us!” Ted shoved Emmett hard, almost to the floor, as he pushed his way out of the booth and stomped to the door. Emmett started to follow but Ben’s hand stopped him. “Let him go. He needs to cool off.”

Emmett nodded. “He’s just under a lot of stress,” he said by way of apology. “He didn’t mean any of that.” He glanced at Brian without a word, returning to his menu.

Brian leaned forward in his seat. “What the fuck is he on, Emmett?”

Justin stared in shock at Brian. No. Ted? Wouldn’t-even-take-an-energy-tablet, Ted? What the hell had been going on? He’d escaped into his little world with Ethan and abandoned those around him. He studied Brian’s face, seeing the fatigue in his eyes as he argued quietly with Emmett.

“It’s fine, Brian. He can handle it,” Emmett snapped. “Can we get our breakfast, please? I‘ll have the usual.”

Brian sighed, shaking his head. “I’m late for an appointment.” He waited as Ben and Michael scooted out to let him through and moved towards the register, ignoring the whispered conversation and pointed looks. He glanced at up as Justin approached, handing him some bills. “I’m paying for them.”

“Are you going to wait for breakfast?”

“I don’t have the time.”

His hand brushed Brian’s as he took the money, and their eyes met. That unspoken energy crossing the space between them. Brian spoke softly, just for him. “You did good, Sunshine.” Brian’s head motioned to the poster, his eyes straying to Justin’s lips and back up. Something dark and nameless there.

Justin looked away quickly as he took the bill, adding up the meals mentally. He couldn’t let this happen. This feeling that swept over him now. He took a deep breath and, starting to give Brian his change back, glanced up to see him gone.

He should let him go.

The money in his hand, he ran out the door, calling out for Brian before he got into his car. He caught up to him and, breathless, raised the hand with the money. “You forgot your change.”

Brian quirked an eyebrow. “No, I didn’t. Keep it.” He shoved his briefcase into the backseat. Justin shook his head at him, feeling that same kick in the stomach now as he had the first time he’d seen the ‘Vette. It reminded him of the things that weren’t. Of what once was but was now gone. “Brian, that’s almost a thirty dollar tip. I can‘t accept that.” He motioned for Brian to take the money and was duly ignored. Sighing, he shoved the change into his apron pocket and watched Brian circle to the other side.

“Listen, about what happened in there…you didn’t have to do that.” Justin smiled softly. “But I wanted to thank you for….” His hand waved in the air between them helplessly.

Brian shrugged. “Don’t let what Ted said bother you. It was about me, not you.”

“He’s really pissed at you, isn’t he?”

Brian laughed mirthlessly. “They all are to some degree. Debbie barely looks at me these days.”

Justin heard it. That tone Brian would hide from them all. Desperate and sad, but resolved. “Why are you doing it?” Since their impromptu shoot, Justin had tried to catch up on what was happening around him. He could no longer ignore Debbie’s anger toward Brian or the panic that seemed to be seeping through the streets. Something was threatening them.

Brian looked over the car to him, his eyes bleak and hopeless. “Because I need to, Sunshine.” He climbed in the car, starting the engine. The passenger door opened and Justin was inside, closing it behind him soundly.

Brian cursed silently. His defenses weren’t what they once were nowadays. He couldn’t deal with this.

“I don’t know what’s going on, but I know you, Brian. Fucking Stockwell? You hate him. I can see it in your eyes whenever someone even remotely mentions his name.“ Justin silently willed Brian to look at him. He leaned closer, seeing that same bleakness in his eyes. “You hate this.”

“You know that, do you?”

Justin nodded. “I do. Since that night last month, I thought we’d gotten back to being…friends.”

Brian snorted. “We were never friends, Sunshine.”

“You were my friend,” Justin insisted. “Before everything happened. And, whether you believe it or not, I know you. Don’t give me that look. I know when you’re hiding away. I know when you’re swallowing down anger. It happened enough between us at…the end. You hate what’s happening.” Justin shook his head. “Which is why I don’t get what you’re doing it for.”

Brian spoke firmly. “He’s my ticket out of here. Plain and simple.”

“So, fuck all who get in his way? No matter that you care about them. You‘ll let them burn for Stockwell.”

Brian schooled his face, glancing at Justin. “If that’s what I have to do. “ He made his laugh cold at Justin’s obvious disappointment. “You know better than most the kind of bastard I am. Now get the fuck out.” He looked away, waiting for the sound of the door, that crushing ache that would follow, but it never came. What he heard was Justin’s deep sigh and, moments later, felt warm fingers on his cheek.

“I know better than most the bastard you pretend to be, Kinney.” The fingers tucked stray hair behind Brian’s ear, caressing it softly, and Brian fought against the torrent that threatened to spill. The now constant weariness overcame him, and his eyes closed. Pain coursing through like blood in his veins. He wanted to whimper, to give in, but he willed it to stay down, ignoring the reaction his body had with Justin so near.

“I said get the fuck out.”

The hand stopped at his neck, rubbing it softly. “You’re better than this, Brian.” With that parting shot, Justin climbed out of the car, Brian watching as he jogged down the block and disappeared into the diner.

His hand banged against the steering wheel, causing the pain to pulse up his arm. “Fuck.” It gripped his chest and he breathed, eyes watering. He needed to leave now. He wanted to forget the words that echoed in his mind, the voice that haunted him. That always left him aching for something different. That almost made him regret.

“You’re better than this, Brian.”


|Chapter 3|

Date: 2007-09-25 11:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] camelhaircoat.livejournal.com
Wow. That's all I can say. I read your first chapter and have been anxiously awaiting the second - and it did not disappoint. Your story is so well-written it is a pleasure to read. I think the characters are very much in-character and I can feel each of their sadness and regret, yet not knowing how to go back and undo what's been done.

Do you mind if I friend you so I can be sure not to miss any of this as it unfolds? I'd also like to read whatever else you may have written. Thanks ever so -

Date: 2007-09-25 08:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Wow. That's all I can say. I read your first chapter and have been anxiously awaiting the second - and it did not disappoint. Your story is so well-written it is a pleasure to read. I think the characters are very much in-character and I can feel each of their sadness and regret, yet not knowing how to go back and undo what's been done.

Thank you so much! *happyjoy* I love hearing that the story is in-character. I always try for that. It's going to take time for them.

Do you mind if I friend you so I can be sure not to miss any of this as it unfolds? I'd also like to read whatever else you may have written. Thanks ever so -

Please feel free to friend me! I'll do the same :) And all my recent fics are archived here on my LJ. On the sidebar under Writing. I'm so honored that you want to read it. Thank you.

Date: 2007-09-25 11:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sheira66.livejournal.com
OHOHOH I'm so excited - I thought chapter one was a stand alone and was a little disapointed when it ended (although that would have worked quite well also) so I was very excited to see that you were continuing. And WOW what a way to continue - I swear I could actually feel Brian's pain at the end - can't wait for chapter 3!
hugs
sme

Date: 2007-09-26 12:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
yay! Glad you're excited. I originially intended for this to BE a one shot so you're not entirely wrong. However, the muse took off with it at a run...and here we are lol.

Thank you for reading! More soon

*hugs back*

Date: 2007-09-25 12:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] armandyouidiot.livejournal.com
This is SO GOOD! Wonderfully enriching the QAF canon. I love the image of them having their private moment in the car and Justin's "fingers tucked stray hair behind Brian’s ear, caressing it softly, and Brian fought against the torrent that threatened to spill." You've captured so much emotion in this chapter. I'm even interested in Ted's story, the way you portray his pain. Really well done.

Date: 2007-09-26 12:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Wonderfully enriching the QAF canon.

WOW! Thank you! I loved the car scene. There's so much more going on with Brian right now and he really needs Justin even if he won't admit it.

Teddy was so messed up in that season but it did so much for his character that I didn't want to take that away so just twisted it a bit. :)

More soon!

Date: 2007-09-25 01:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ex-reizaine184.livejournal.com
“You know better than most the kind of bastard I am. Now get the fuck out.” He looked away, waiting for the sound of the door, that crushing ache that would follow, but it never came. What he heard was Justin’s deep sigh and, moments later, felt warm fingers on his cheek.

“I know better than most the bastard you pretend to be, Kinney.” The fingers tucked stray hair behind Brian’s ear, caressing it softly, and Brian fought against the torrent that threatened to spill.


oh my god, that scene is grippingly beautiful. i've enjoyed this chapter and the last a lot- i love how you've nailed the mood for early-s3, Brian and Justin trying to establish what they are to each other while the memories of their time together still haunt them, and the whole Stockwell issue. really, really well done.

can't wait for the next chapter!

Date: 2007-09-26 12:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
oh my god, that scene is grippingly beautiful. i've enjoyed this chapter and the last a lot- i love how you've nailed the mood for early-s3, Brian and Justin trying to establish what they are to each other while the memories of their time together still haunt them, and the whole Stockwell issue. really, really well done.

can't wait for the next chapter!


Though I loved the reunion and wouldn't change it, I always felt they were headed somewhere in the first four eppy's with B/J. Some sort of friendship...but then it just went away. I kind of want to see that with teh love still there of course though. Stockwell wasn't as huge of an issue as it should have been. Now, it will be.

Thank you for reading!

Date: 2007-09-25 01:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] das-vroni.livejournal.com
wow, great story!!! Can´t wait for the next chapter.

Date: 2007-09-26 12:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Thank you! More soon!

Date: 2007-09-25 02:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] plumduff.livejournal.com
I wanna see that poster !!!

Date: 2007-09-26 12:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
OMG J! 1.) I squishy LOVEADOREWANT your icon! OMG! That is just the cutest thing EVAH!!!!

2.) Hell, I want to see that poster too! LOL! If any of the fabulous graphic designer want to do one, please feel free!

3.) I WROTE quite a bit of Say It Right!! HEEEE!!!

Date: 2007-09-25 04:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] aschicca.livejournal.com
*takes a deep breath and delurks again*

I'm really enjoying this new story, it's almost like I can see it happening. You got everybody perfectly, Ted especially in his drug-addicted phase.

Of course I *loved* the scene in the 'vette. And as always Justin's right, Brian *is* better than that...

More soon? *hopes*

Date: 2007-09-26 12:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Oh thank you! This story took me by surprise to be honest. It just sort of came out of nowhere so I'm so happy you like it.

*sigh* Teddy is pretty screwed up, yeah.

Of course I *loved* the scene in the 'vette. And as always Justin's right, Brian *is* better than that...

He really *really* is. He doesn't believe sadly.

More soon? *hopes*

*g* I will do my best!

Date: 2007-09-26 01:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
and btw thank you so much for delurking to comment. That's the best compliment. :)

Date: 2007-09-25 04:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jans-intentions.livejournal.com
“I know better than most the bastard you pretend to be, Kinney.” The fingers tucked stray hair behind Brian’s ear, caressing it softly, and Brian fought against the torrent that threatened to spill. The now constant weariness overcame him, and his eyes closed. Pain coursing through like blood in his veins. He wanted to whimper, to give in, but he willed it to stay down, ignoring the reaction his body had with Justin so near.

“I said get the fuck out.”

The hand stopped at his neck, rubbing it softly. “You’re better than this, Brian.” With that parting shot, Justin climbed out of the car, Brian watching as he jogged down the block and disappeared into the diner.

Oh, man, the whole thing is so crushingly good. I loved this part. Brian wants Justin back so much. Can't wait for more. *takes out a stick and pokes you with it*

Date: 2007-09-26 12:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Oh, man, the whole thing is so crushingly good. I loved this part. Brian wants Justin back so much. Can't wait for more. *takes out a stick and pokes you with it*


That section was my favorite to write :)

Brian *needs* Justin back so badly now. He won't admit it of course but it's true.

Hey! No poking the writer. It angers them. *grins*

*pokes you for more Noir*

Date: 2007-09-26 12:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jans-intentions.livejournal.com
I'm writing more Noir now. I don't want to, though. I was trying to write some TG and it kind of got in the way. I also wrote Deep yesterday, the prologue, so I may stick up the new suspense story tomorrow. Dunno.

Noir needs no encouragement. I have to fend it off so I can work on the other stuff. ^^

Date: 2007-09-26 01:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
More TG is loved as well of course...and omg Deep is going up already?! *excited*

Noir needs no encouragement. I have to fend it off so I can work on the other stuff. ^^

I'm feeling that way about Indebted. It won't let me write anything else lol...


Date: 2007-09-25 05:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kari77.livejournal.com
God loved him. He would spare him being here for it. He was a kind, benevolent deity.

“Holy spandex of hotness!” Michael exclaimed. “Will you look at that!”

Justin’s eyes closed. Brian was right. God was a bastard.

*gaaaah* *rofl*

Ok, can I say: TEASE? This must be a hell of a poster and we can't see it!!! *pouts* ;-)

Lately, Michael had been dropping little jabs here and there about things he had no right to talk about. Brian didn’t like it.
Damn right you are, Brian.

Everyone froze, eyes swinging from Brian to Justin and back. “Justin asked me for help. I gave it to him. End of story.” Brian stared at each of them for a few long seconds before turning his gaze to Justin, winking slyly at him. “Now, can we fucking order, please?” That was the end of it. The great Kinney had spoken.
*rrrr* Can I just say that I love it when he is so matter-of-factly and bossy?
And it was nice of Brian to save Justin from having to explain matters further.

His hand brushed Brian’s as he took the money, and their eyes met. That unspoken energy crossing the space between them. Brian spoke softly, just for him. “You did good, Sunshine.” Brian’s head motioned to the poster, his eyes straying to Justin’s lips and back up. Something dark and nameless there.
Just ... *guuuuh* *fans self*

“I know better than most the bastard you pretend to be, Kinney.” The fingers tucked stray hair behind Brian’s ear, caressing it softly, and Brian fought against the torrent that threatened to spill. The now constant weariness overcame him, and his eyes closed. Pain coursing through like blood in his veins. He wanted to whimper, to give in, but he willed it to stay down, ignoring the reaction his body had with Justin so near.
Me -> more *guuuuh*

Michael & Ben, Emmett & Ted, Brian & Justin and Debbie, of course: you captured them all so perfectly, the way they were in the middle of season 3. Spot on characterisation. My heart ached for Ted the most. I love him to the moon and back, but, jeeez, what a bastard the drugs made of him. *pets Teddy*


What a great chapter! But I don't expect anything less from you. ;-)
Thanks, Kat! *hugs*

Date: 2007-09-26 12:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Ok, can I say: TEASE? This must be a hell of a poster and we can't see it!!! *pouts* ;-)

I know I'm terrible lol! I think one of our fabulous graphic artists just make it one.

OMG! The gangs reactions were awesome. I had fun
writing that.

Michael knows the pain Brian is in so he's trying to help in his own Mikey-way lol.

*rrrr* Can I just say that I love it when he is so matter-of-factly and bossy?
And it was nice of Brian to save Justin from having to explain matters further.


I love that about him too. Brian saved Justin for himself too. No way he was going to explain anything to the boys lol. Plus there's more that happened so he didn't want to get into that. *grins*

Oh gosh I loved writing both the scene at the register and in the 'vette. *sigh*

My heart ached for Ted the most. I love him to the moon and back, but, jeeez, what a bastard the drugs made of him. *pets Teddy*

Poor Teddy. I needed to keep his SL in Season 3. It did so much for his character and made me love him oodles more. And OMG, yes. He was a sonofabitch during that time.

Thank you for reading Kari! More soon!!

*hugs*

Date: 2007-09-27 08:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blue-eyedstar.livejournal.com
You can't believe how grateful I am that you gave Brian something else to order instead of that freekin' turkey sandwich! Thankfuckin'god somebody got enough sense to make him eat something different! lol Thankyouthankyouthankyou!

Date: 2007-09-27 09:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
*lmao* That's the funniest comment I've ever recieved. You're very welcome lol. He needs to eat better stuff in this fic cause...well he has his reasons lol.

*still laughing*

Date: 2007-09-25 06:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alasse.livejournal.com
WEEE! Update!
I loved this. So painful, so intense... and yet with humor there, the tone changing subtly when the different people came in.
This made me laugh SO hard: “Holy spandex of hotness!” I swear, I'm gonna use it now. It's a classic. Justi like 'Holy porkchop!'
Then, the HURT of that old connection, sooo strong. Brian is barely holding on. And the scene at the diner was perfect, everyone's reactions... Ted is really cracking, huh?
That final scene hurt. But it hurt so good. I loved how Justin called Brian on the b.s., that really loving way he did it.
Amazing, Can't wait for more
Hugs,
Arlad

Date: 2007-09-26 12:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
yay me update! I really tried for some humor because overall it is pretty somber piece.

This made me laugh SO hard: “Holy spandex of hotness!” I swear, I'm gonna use it now. It's a classic. Justi like 'Holy porkchop!'

Now that a great compliment!!! I loved that line.

Brian needs Justin right now. He won't admit it but he does. And Justin hates seeing Brian be less than who he is. It was really painful for them.

Thank you for reading!! More soon.

Date: 2007-09-25 07:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bluemchenkaffee.livejournal.com
Wonderful story!
I loved the way Justin talked to Brian in the car and I'm curious about what's going to happen next.

So, please update soon!!!

Susanne

Date: 2007-09-26 12:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Thank you Susanne! :) Well, Brian needed a little kick in the pants so Justin provided it lol...

Will try hard for more soon!

Date: 2007-09-25 07:56 pm (UTC)
peripety: (B/J Brian on Top)
From: [personal profile] peripety
I loved how you had everyone's reactions to seeing the poster - they were all on-target, and fit in perfectly with the other events happening in S3. So well done.

You're better than this, Brian He surely is. You captured Brian's feelings of regret and loss, and I ached for him, even though I never blamed Justin for leaving in the first place. You referred in Part 1 to Justin dancing at Babylon and at the Sap's party as something he needed to do; in a way he needed to be apart from Brian, too, to understand what it is he really wanted and needed.

Date: 2007-09-26 12:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
The boys reactions were fun to write so thank you for the lovely compliment!

He surely is. You captured Brian's feelings of regret and loss, and I ached for him, even though I never blamed Justin for leaving in the first place. You referred in Part 1 to Justin dancing at Babylon and at the Sap's party as something he needed to do; in a way he needed to be apart from Brian, too, to understand what it is he really wanted and needed.

Completely agree with you. At the time I don't think I saw it as clearly. I was upset but as the season progressed I realized BOTH Brian and Justin needed that break. So they could understand what they really meant to each other. I'm hoping that's a huge part of this story. :)

Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Date: 2007-09-25 09:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] joho-helge.livejournal.com
You have given me hope again. There's only so many times you can reread your favourite B/J fics which I have found myself doing because the new ones that come out aren't really that good.
And then you come along and writes this, it's just... so incredibly beautiful and you manage to break me, put me together and break me again all in one chapter.
If you can't tell I am in love with this fic. I can absolutely see this happening. I don't know what else to say, words fail me.
I do know one thing, this will be one of those classic B/J fics that people will remember and reread. So thank you again.
PS. Stop reading this and get cracking on another chapter, please :)

Re: Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Date: 2007-09-26 12:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Well I don't even know how to begin to respond. This is one of the loveliest comments I've ever recieved so thank you so much for that.

And your welcome! I think we have some good stuff still left in the fanbase but it has become harder to find.

Classic? Wow. I'm truly touched. Thank you again.

Okay...more soon I promise lol.

Date: 2007-09-25 09:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
Bunny food? lol

Yay, everybody is so happy :D Me, too. I consider myself very lucky to have beta duties.

I forgot to tell you how much I liked the "You were my friend" part. Awww, and niiiice!

Date: 2007-09-26 12:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Yep oodles of it lol! Well of course you're lucky. You live with me. *grin*

Oh I loved that too. He really was.

*hugs you*

I hope you feel better soon!

Date: 2007-09-26 03:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] volvenord.livejournal.com
This is so good. It was like I was there in the Diners. Each character is to the point. Very well written and I look very much forward to next chapter.
Valkyrie

Date: 2007-09-27 09:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Oh thank you! I'm enjoying this one ALOT! LOL. More soon.

Date: 2007-09-27 06:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kinwad.livejournal.com
Absolutely wonderful fic! You have such a handle on the characters: their personalities, their little nuances, etc.

LOL...Justin really does have Brian's number (at least in this instance)!

Can't wait for the next chapter!

Date: 2007-09-27 09:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! *blush* I'm glad I've got them right. It's something I always worry about.

Oh Mr. Taylor is VERY aware of Mr. Kinney's faults and all his little tricks lol.

More soon!

Date: 2007-10-20 11:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com
Wow, well here I am again, Jan told me to read this & I"m so glad I did, this is great, OMFG the tension between them, its electric, BK so adores JT & JT so knows & understands BK, this is going to be great, & I only cried a widdle bit :D after last night, this is a breeze,,hugs J.xx
YOU are a wonderful writer, looking so forward to whats going to happen, JT can't resist him, who could!!!

Date: 2007-10-20 10:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Oh yeah. This is kinda of the fun fic lol...cause at least their in the same city still lol. I enjoy writing this one as well. Thanks for reading!

Date: 2007-11-03 11:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] devotedfan.livejournal.com
What a Brilliant chapter!

Justin just wanted to disappear into the woodwork,
he was hoping no one would see the poster but he wasn't
going to be that lucky.

I love Ted's remark to Michael.


“Well, well, Boy Wonder.” Michael grinned up at him.

“I don’t think ‘boy’ is the appropriate noun,” Ted remarked

Date: 2007-11-05 12:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] freakykat.livejournal.com
Thank you! It was definitely a fun chapter to write.

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